Why aren’t we confident in our own skin, with our own body, with our image?
Today I’ve asked myself this question because I cried on Friday morning, I cried on the fact that I have cellulite…
Yes, I have cellulite.
I always did, but the difference is : It is visible now. And you want to know the best part of it? My Boyfriend does not care at all.
So why do I cry, why am I so hard and tough to myself?
The thing is I realised that I’ve spent half of my life restricted myself for not being the one everyone wanted me to be (big breath with small hips) while I was the opposite (generous hips and perfect breath, yes I wrote it: per-fect!).
And I cried on Friday because I was finally accepting myself after all these years spending my time analysing my body, scrutinising every inches of it, while the only thing I wish I have done before was to tell myself: “you are gorgeous”, and tell the others: “you are ugly”.
But now it is too late.
It is too late because I will never have the body I used to have.
I already do a lot of gym (four times per week) with a balanced diet. And I want to have fun as well this means eat, drink and laugh. I cannot spend my life all the time at the gym, because I want to spend time laughing, talking with my Boyfriend. This Man who tells me every day: you are gorgeous, I love your body, “I’m in love with your body“…!
However, here are little things I will do because who knows it worth trying in general so why not? :
– Drink more water, and by “water” I mean real water, no tea, no coffee, no other liquid. Wa-Ter.
– Massage my skin. I have already taken two appointments at the beauty institute and I can feel my skin likes it.
– Add one session of fitness to my weekly routine, the weather is nice today so I’m going for a 4km run.
– Eat two more fruits during the day time (today I’ve eaten an apple and a banana)
– Stop sugar.
I will let you know in a month how I have been doing and if I see any change.
In the meantime: take care and love your body right now!