Autumn is the season of the year that is undefinable because it is the end of Summer, the end of the long days full of light, the end of warm memories. And at the same time, it represents the nice part of being cosy and warm at home, it is synonymous of long walks in the wood and the nostalgia of the smell of the leaves that reminds our childhood and the related care free.
The End. Carefreeness.
I want these two words to define my Autumn. As I want this season to be the End of the downs I have encountered during this Year. And I want to get my Carefreeness back.
We all suffer, but I am at a time of my life that I feel tired to get better each year, I want to feel good. Just good, relax and free.
I want that freedom back.
I have read a blogpost of my new friend Özlem Soyden in which she tells the following about the freedom of writing:
I love writing stories because it makes you feel free as a bird. You can write about anything, change the plot if you want and end the story the way you like. It’s like playing a game. You are holding the steering wheel, so it’s you who is controlling the direction of the boat. In real life though, you cannot have the ultimate control over things even if you do your best and plan all the steps accordingly. So, it’s simply about the beauty of writing stories.
I would like to apply the same sense of freedom into my life. I cannot control everything but I can orientate the direction my Life is taking. If I feel that I want my freedom and carefreeness back I can work on it by doing simple things like walking, driving, breathing, laughing, focus my thoughts on the good and calming memories instead of the anxious and bad ones. I can work on the plethora of dreams I have : photography, writing, …
Today, I began a feeling diary where I write down all the feelings I have, especially the things that annoys me. This advice has been given to me by Sophia Roe (she is a fantastic wellness adviser and a Chef!).
I also decided to allow myself a maximum of 5 useless thoughts, as I call them. These are thoughts that are negative and not needed. For instance, to think about an annoying colleague from work while I am at the gym focusing on my health and having a good time (between us, I am smiling while I am writing this down).
I have to be good with myself it is an everyday work.
As always thank you so much for reading,